Tuesday, December 12, 2023

Musing at 3 am



Each conscious step leads to understanding we haven't created or manifested everything. Things are happening around us that don't involve us. Instead it's manifestation of creation at work and we can neither stop it or start it. Life is happening everywhere and to think it is because of us is limiting perspective. 


For example, I'm currently in England. Not everything happening here is because of me, or because I've looked at it. On Friday I fly to the states for 3 months to fulfill UK immigration. Upon landing in Florida I will see things going on around me. And guess what? I will have had nothing to do with any of it. I wasn't there. On the flip side things in England will keep going on and I won't have caused any of it too. I won't be there. 


Things manifest everywhere without us doing anything. There are other forces at work and though we can influence something, being the cause of it is an entirely different matter. The unfolding is CREATION manifesting itself everywhere independently of us. 


The next question to ask, are we OK with that? 


With love,

Ellen 

Monday, December 4, 2023

Insecurity Shift


Insecurity can lead to a defensive life, focused around deep seated feelings of inadequacy. It's about protecting the ego at all costs which in the end can stalemate a person, leading them further from their soul truth. 

I lived with this for many years and can finally say, I've turned the corner. This doesn't mean I'm perfect and never struggle, it simply means my heart made a choice and the result was a letting go of grievances, a very destructive energy that propelled me into decades of animosity. It was binding to say the least. 


Experiencing inner healing exposed the damaging ways these negative emotions were affecting my health. This honest reflection was not easy to face and over time (a long, long time) it brought my heart into peace, forgiveness, empathy and an open mindedness. All qualities essential to self love and love for others. It has released me from being selfishly preoccupied with the mirror of me, myself and I. 


This self awareness has initiated an incredible change and transformation to my thoughts, choices and behaviors. The journey continues.


With Love,

Ellen 

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