Self hatred can be disguised in Self Grandiosity by its need to prove to the mind & to the mind of others that you are worthy, that you are something, & that you're somebody.
However, at the base of that thought is; I am worthless, I am nothing, I am nobody. And when willing to see that painful realization, to experience the suffering that has come from believing this way, both in one's personal life and how it's affected others, a beautiful shift occurs.
There's a facing of the grief of how you suspect you aren't somebody. There's a realization that no matter how many accomplishments have happened, there's still the nagging sense of not being enough. When we give ourselves permission to face this, everything is given up and there's no longer a need to say look at me, I am awesome & amazing in the attempt to prove your worthiness.
This journey allows you to finally discover what has been calling from the depths of your inner being. This cannot be understood intellectually as the mind has been the trap. This is coming from a deeper place. Your inner sanctum.
What is nobody & nothing? That is you! When this is accepted the release from the fear of "not" is massive, because there's no longer a need to prove to yourself & others of anything.
You are no-thing, no-body and what a glorious truth at days end! Not to mention how peaceful and restful this state of being.
As always I'm thankful for you,
Ellen
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